Manipulation

I am so irritated right now, I could scream. I probably should scream.

The nurse tried to bring me Procardia at 10am. Well, I explained that I was supposed to be off the Procardia today. She called the midwife and confirmed that yes, I was supposed to take the Procardia today and tonight, and then stop. Sure. Until tomorrow, when they say I should stay on it for another pill or two... and so on. That's the it works. If they didn't do this so often, I wouldn't assume it was the case. Even if that isn't their intent, I am not taking anything until I speak with the midwife myself. I would like to have two nights med-free before they "send me home" (ha). In order to get those two nights, I am not staying here until Tuesday. I might take their pill today, but not tonight. I don't care if the doctors aren't in until Monday or not.

If I don't go into labor by Monday, I know how this is going to work. They are going to check me on Monday and there will be some reason that I have to stay. Three of the last four times they checked my cervix I've been sent to the hospital. Odds are, my cervix will hold a great reason to have to keep me. Oh, magical cervix.... what is your command?? "The cervix has instructed us that we need to keep you one more day and see what happens". I can hear it now.

I MISS MY KIDS!!!! Today is their sixth day at Randy and Linda's house. They were supposed to come home last night, but a blizzard decided to come and dump 4-5" of snow. They were going to come this morning, but the roads are bad. Maybe the snow is also taking orders from my cervix in a grand plan to frustrate me to my limits.